Clarity’s blog

wow, another year, new Blogisattva awards for Buddhists blogs and bloggers are here. Lots of interesting things this year and I’m looking forward to exploring many of them. This blog even seemed to be nominated in three different categories. Of course, as luck would have it, the post that got nominated twice - Thinking of others, currently returns a blank page!!! sheesh! Best post of the year indeed. Bloody Typo.
Thanks for the nominations though, and I hope I get the post back up soon!

Update: the post seems to be working ok now. Still, I think it’s really time to switch to Wordpress.

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Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms or books that are written in a foreign tongue. The point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live your way some distant day into the answers.
R.M. Rilke.

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after a hard day we two decided to go for some fun on the trampoline:

Yeah, I know, I’m overdoing this clone thing a bit…

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“thinking” “thinking”

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Awakened heart comes from being willing to face your state of mind. The sitting practice of meditation is a means to awaken this within you. When you awaken your heart, to your surprise, you find that it is empty. If you search for awakened heart, if you put your hand through your rib cage and feel for your heart, there is nothing there - except for tenderness. You feel sore and soft, and if you open your eyes to the world, you feel tremendous sadness. It is not the sadness of feeling sorry for yourself or feeling deprived. It is a natural situation of fullness. The genuine heart of sadness comes from this feeling that your nonexistent heart is full. Your experience is so raw, tender, and personal that even if a tiny mosquito lands on you, you feel its touch.

Vidyadhara Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

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baloons are always fun at the party:

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at the party we had lots of fun with my new trampoline! here is Kaja testing it out:

More videos as I manage to upload them.

here is Matjaz Krivic:

and here is Ivona:

and jani:

and matjaz showed us some new moves too:

the ball was lots of fun too:

not that you can see much in all this darkness!

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well, i’m one year older, and, well, what can I say… life sure is interesting… lots of changes and ups and downs in my life lately and not a lot of practice.
anyways, don’t feel like writing much this morning, so here are some photos:

Birthday photos

Update: oops, for some reason flickr was showing the wrong photos. hope it’s fixed now!

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you’ve just got to love how a simple sentence from someone experienced can turn your whole drama around. I’ve just ended up talking to my MI, stressing about how unprepared I feel for this coming Shambhala Training Level IV where I’m going to be the assistant director for the level, kinda on the last moment - so i didn’t have time to prepare, i have lots of things to do with school, and in fact i’ll have to miss a whole saturday of the program because of it.
All of this on top of feeling really burnt out, irritated and just generally cranky, and this has been going on for almost a week now.
So, his response was very simple: “Robert, you just have to trust it, trust that what you need is already there, it’s in your bones. You’ve done so many of these things over the years, it’s completely soaked in in you. Besides for Level IV you just have to ask them how they’re doing and just give them space. There’s nothing you need to do.”
Oh. Of course. How come I always forget?

My usual response though is always the same - when I’m uncertain, or stressed I should try harder, get more tight. Even though I know it never works, I still think it’s the right thing to do. Heh.
What a silly mind I have.
It’s all about relaxation, the mind you want is already here. Just give it a goddamn break!

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Happy New Year everyone!

(i think i just might have to start a separate photoblog if this photo mania continues!)

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