I just had a talk with the mentor for our group who’s also my MI. It brought up quite a lot of interesting things. My tremendous doubt in myself these days for one. That I don’t know what I’m doing, what our group is doing or should be doing. And how I’m desperately looking outward for help.
Of course, he didn’t buy any of it, and didn’t offer any advice. He just said, you’re fine, what you’re doing is completely fine, and you should just trust yourself. And my mind was doing summer saults - wait a minute, what do you mean I’m fine? I’m hardly practicing, my resistance is huge, I feel disconnected, I have no devotion, completely confused, bla bla bla.
Nope, you’re just fine. :) He wouldn’t budge.
That shook my world a bit. What if he’s right?