December 2005
Monthly Archive
storm
Posted by Clarity on 23 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Personal
The storm seems to have passed, more or less, and I’m ok, just completely exhausted. Today was a rough day, it’s been a while since I was so caught in an emotional upheaval. It is good to remember the cocoon and how painful it is to be trapped in it. How little space there is in there, no vision, just lots of reactivity and blame.
I aspire that it would soften me further, gentle me, and allow me to cultivate compassion, for myself and my fellow beings trapped in this same f**** boat. I really wish noone to go through this kind of hell of our own making. It also put a relationship with a dear friend to quite a challenge, and I felt quite hurt and apparently she did as well. 
The bodhisattva of compassion is sometimes depicted with thousands of arms, in each something that would help. Right now I wish that instead of thousands of them, I just had two very long and big ones, and could embrace this whole suffering world with them. (i know, a weird image). and especially you…
pain
Posted by Clarity on 23 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Personal
Feeling alone and full of pain right now. Waves of tears come and go. Wanting to reach out, yet afraid of being hurt.
*sigh*
shambhala ljubljana on tv slovenia
Posted by Clarity on 23 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala
Our national TV did a short piece on our small Shambhala group here in Ljubljana. You can watch it here: Duhovni utrip
It turned out amazingly well, and my thanks goes to the team at TV Slovenia, they did a fantastic job.
laziness
Posted by Clarity on 20 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala
Laziness reduces the possibility of bringing about happiness.
from Ruling Your World, by Sakyon Mipham Rinpoche
heart
Posted by Clarity on 18 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala, Poetry
from the girl: now that your heart has broken open, let the dharma in.
i think i’d just say when the heart breaks open, dharma is already there. or love. or devotion. sometimes i just can’t distinguish them anymore.
loneliness
Posted by Clarity on 18 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala, Buddhism
you know, we’ll always be completely and utterly alone, no matter what we do and who we are with. I think the trick is to completely embrace that and live fearlessly from that.
strength
Posted by Clarity on 16 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala
The warrior draws his strength from his aloneness.
biti clovek
Posted by Clarity on 09 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Buddhism
Ce vas zanima kaj vec zvedeti o meditaciji, ste vabljeni na danasnje (9.12) predavanje Biti clovek - umetnost meditacije, ki bo v Vodnjaku znanja, Celovska 61 (nasproti Casa del Papa) v Ljubljani, ob 19h. Vec o tem na shambhala.si
inseparability
Posted by Clarity on 08 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Buddhism
when you do sadhana practice there is usually a part towards the end, when you see yourself and whatever aspect of enlightened mind you were contemplating as inseparable.
this morning though, as I came to that part and thought, now i’m becoming inseparable from this wisdom aspect (i was doing manjushri practice), a thought appears: “You’ve always been inseparable, you git!”
Discursiveness or wisdom, take your pick. 
meeting BeeBee
Posted by Clarity on 07 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Blogosphere
Today I have met my first Slovenian fellow blogger, author of My So-Called Blog. I’ve written a little about her blog before.
It is really very nice to meet in real life a person whose writing I’ve been reading for so long. Thank you for taking the time, B.!
If there is ever another Slovenian weblog meet, it would be really nice to meet some others as well. David, what do you say?
genuine cuddly bears
Posted by Clarity on 02 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Shambhala
you two are like cuddly genuine teddy bears
by a friend on hearing Jim and me will be co-teaching Being Human weekend.
bubbling up
Posted by Clarity on 01 Dec 2005 | Tagged as: Personal
For the latter part of today I’ve been feeling kinda strange, disoriented, dizzy, almost like a sickness is coming. As I was sitting tonight in our group, my mind was not just kinda its normal distracted self, but kinda like just not wanting to stay anywhere, everything blurred, with a hint of panic somewhere. Completely spaced out. I remembered then that I know this state of mind, or better this kind of reaction. It always seems to precede when something major is about to float up from my store of skeletons buried deep down in my unconscious. My mind just does not want to be there or see it. I also know that this is time when I need to be especially gentle and kind to myself, really really taking care of myself. Definitely not pushing anything, just let it unfold in its own time. ::hug:: to myself…